"TEMPEST"
Melisa. College. Pictures. Nature. Beauty
I couldnt dare write to you yesterday. I may have been having a panic attack because I finally got the courage to ask you why you stopped liking me. Your answer… bittersweet. You told me that I was way to special to you that you never wanted to lose me. It was the hardest yet nicest thing ive ever heard. This might have just made things harder for me. I just dont know where this leaves us. I need you in my life and I dont ever want to say goodbye to you ever again.
Today I dont know what to say to you other than what ill most likely say everday. Going through the day without you is hard and I just want I just need you next to me. I want you to tell me how you feel about me.
I dont know what to say today other than I miss you. I thought about you a lot today and how you are and what your doing. I want you to visit me over the summer. I feel like I need to know how you feel about me soon. I dont want to be that girl that waited around for something that will never happen. I feel myself getting closer and closer to really writing you to find out the truth. I need to know that im waiting for something real and that im not waisting my time.
Everyday over the summer since I am away from you I will write you a letter.
As I sit here in bed I look at my phone wanting to text you and just tell you how im crazy about you. I just cant seem to do it. I want to tell you that over the past 6 months you have managed to make me fall completely head over heels for you. Its just that I know you might not feel the same way and thats the only thing holding me back. I would rather be friends with you than not have you in my life at all. I just hope that maybe you feel the same way and that you sit at home and look at your phone and want to tell me the same things. Its only taken 6 months but how I feel about you is incredible. I just want to tell you and hope you feel the same way.
I have fallen completely in love with a boy who will never know. Maybe one day ill get over it.
Today someone posted a status saying that youll know where your heart is when you pay attention to where your mind wonders. I realized that my mind wonders to him but, I dont think its about him really. I cant really explain it its like my mind wonders to him but its something that I want to happen but never will. Its like the movies when you see a part where someone is falling in love, I think thats where my mind really wonders because thats what I want. I want to fall in love with someone just like that but lately ive realized that no matter how much you want that its not going to happen like that.
